“For by me (wisdom from God) your days will be multiplied, And years of life shall be increased.”
Proverbs 9:11 AMP
I’ve been wrestling lately over wisdom to address a few areas in my life. I’ve read different programs offered online. I’ve met with a naturopathic physician. I’ve worried. I’ve read some more. Traditional medicine hasn’t worked. Chiropractic didn’t work. I just want an answer – more likely a quick fix. I feel pretty alone in this one – carrying a burden I’m not sure how to solve.
This afternoon found me on my face in my closet – finally. I asked G-d if I ever asked Him about this. Have I truly sought His guidance on what we should do daily? I’ve prayed about it of course – but the daily ask – what should we eat, or not eat; what should we drink or not drink; what should we take or not take .. daily asking, daily listening, daily following.
No.
I haven’t done it to that minute. I haven’t depended on Him to guide every single bite or supplement. I’ve mainly trusted “man”.
Today we had lunch with a dear couple friend. They used to be pastors at Shady Grove and now attend Trinity Fellowship too. As I was sitting next to her admiring her outfit, I wondered if she still did something she talked about once at a women’s event. Pastor Kaye shared that she would stand in her closet and say, “Holy Spirit, what should I wear today?” Then she’d wait, listen for His voice, and obey. It was a daily act of faith and obedience. It was one small habit that led to other acts of faith and obedience.
What if I did that with my food, supplements, and other things? So often I just DO without asking. Yet – He has wisdom for me if I’ll just reach for it.
Maybe this is obvious to most and I am a slow adapter, but as I lay here anxious about food specifically and it’s affects on Alathia’s health, His voice is ringing in my heart, “Just ask Me. Ask Me before each bite. I have a better way.”
I don’t know what this looks like entirely. But I know conviction when it comes and that’s what I’m feeling. Conviction to be more intentional in all areas. Time of of the essence and as Pastor Kaye encouraged me today – He wants me to enjoy the journey – every part of it. He has grace for me too if I’ll just ask.
Father – thank You for Pastor Kaye and Pastor David. G-d – You know my cry for my child. You know how I long – how she longs – for healing. Give us wisdom. Help us to trust You in each bite. Show us the way to walk. You are good and You keep doing good. Your leadership in my life is perfect and You can be trusted. Amen.
Daily Reading: Proverbs 7-9