“I am not able to bear all these people alone, because the burden is too heavy for me. If You treat me like this, please kill me here and now—if I have found favor in Your sight—and do not let me see my wretchedness!” So the Lord said to Moses: “Gather to Me seventy men of the elders of Israel, whom you know to be the elders of the people and officers over them; bring them to the tabernacle of meeting, that they may stand there with you.”
Numbers 11:14-16 NKJV
I’m ashamed – but not too proud – to admit I little bit lost my kind yesterday. And no, that’s not a typo.
The past month has been especially rough. A new job (same company) with double the responsibility while packing / moving / unpacking has completely depleted me. I realized it yesterday – but that until after I lost my kind. It’s not an excuse – just a realization.
As I was reading today, I was reminded and encouraged that I’m not the only one to be depleted. I’m in good company today, Moses’ to be exact. After the people complained about their provision and lamented their days of slavery, Moses cried out to G-d. Moses essentially said ENOUGH! Kill them or kill me, but I’ve had enough!
G-d’s response? He sent burden bearers – 70 of them to be exact – to stand beside Moses.
We are not meant to bear burdens alone. That is what I had been doing lately – trying to bear the burden of work and personal demands mostly alone – not because others won’t help, rather because I won’t or don’t ask for it. And when I reach the end of me, when the burdens become too heavy, His quiet voice whispers to my heart – “gather to Me.” He is my helper and my defender. He provides help in my time of need if I’ll just ask.
Father – Thank You for mercy. Forgive me for complaining yesterday and being unkind. Father – I am weary. Heart weary. Physically weary. Help me. Humbly I present myself, lay my burden at Your feet, and wait. I gather myself to You, my helper and defender. You are good. Your leadership in my life is perfect and You can be trusted. Amen.
Daily Reading: Numbers 11-13