“Then Moses said to the Lord, “Please, Lord, I am not a man of words (eloquent, fluent), neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and tongue.” The Lord said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute or the deaf, or the seeing or the blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now then go, and I, even I, will be with your mouth, and will teach you what you shall say.” But he said, “Please my Lord, send the message [of rescue to Israel] by [someone else,] whomever else You will [choose].” Then the anger of the Lord was kindled and burned against Moses…. ”

‭‭Exodus‬ ‭4:10-14‬ ‭AMP‬‬

Sometimes I feel like Moses – slow of speech, at a loss for words, fearful and uncertain – especially in the heat of the moment. 

How many times have I responded to G-d like Moses? He gives a directive and I reply with hesitation and uncertainty, questioning my ability. 

Pastor Olen relayed a message to me once that he heard by Joy Dawson. She gave 3 steps to walking in obedience to G-d: 1. Do the first thing G-d tells you to do, 2. Do the next thing G-d tells you to do, and 3. Do the next thing G-d tells you to do. 

It sounds simple yet so often I am derailed by my own fear. Author and Educator Dorothy Lee Donahue says that there are only two basic emotions and from them stem all others: fear or love. If that’s the case – and it makes sense to me – then perhaps my love for Him can be stronger than the fear that leads to disobedience because the last thing I want to do is kindle His anger against me. 

1 John 4:18 says perfect love casts out all fear. May His love be louder than all of our internal noise that keeps us from responding with a resounding YES to what He asks of me. 

Father – how often I’ve listened to fear. Forgive me for giving space to fear. Perfect Your love in my heart. May my love for You be my loudest yes. Amen. 

Daily reading: Exodus 4-6